Sinking boat

To be honest, my life has felt often like an almost sinking boat lately. On one hand Iam exploring new paths, which give energy and life. On the other hand Iam feeling the cold wind blowing through soaked cloths, tasting the salty water and trying to keep on standing while enormous waves crash into my boat and I have to toss many buckets of water out.

But I still trust in Him, that sleeping man on my boat.

Referring to Mark 4, the Bible